My Divine Quest

I have been on a quest as of late, to discover -for myself- an understanding of ‘Divine Feminine’ and ‘Divine Masculine’.

The Quest started with my search for the Divine Feminine and how I could connect with it more, since I have been experiencing left sided physical issues. The left side is energetically aligned with Feminine energy. To the best of my knowledge, I’ve been aligned with the Feminine for some time now, so what the fish is going on???

Back Story

I was not raised to honor the Feminine, much less think there was anything Divine about it. I was taught that my menstrual cycle was a curse, that women assist men and that my body is something to hide from men’s attention. I learned to dismiss my femininity. I learned to not say anything when someone made me uncomfortable or touched me inappropriately. I learned I did not have a right to say no. I learned to turn the other cheek and look away.

What I learned best is that masculine = acceptance.

Not too much though, because then you swing over into being rejected again because you are ‘too masculine’.

Masculine is not bad, its just not Feminine – and to operate effectively we need a balance. As a young child I had loved going down to my father’s service station. I was only two or three, but I have snippets of memory that show up whenever I smell the inside of an auto repair shop today. I also shared a dream with my best friend to be the first female players on the Chicago Cubs National League Baseball team. This was not denying our femininity, it was expressing our unique combination of masculine and feminine energies.

However, when your masculine energy is encouraged and your feminine energy is shamed, you learn to emphasize the masculine.

As I look back, I recognize all the ways I was instinctively drawn to the Divine Feminine. Everything from thriving at a woman’s college, to exploring the feminine deities of several religions. Growing up, I absolutely adored and was fascinated by my aunts and their friends who were nuns.

Instinctively, I was searching for something to fill the void I felt operating with an excess of masculine energy. It’s no surprise that I married someone who also negated my femininity. Someone who did not appreciate my yin qualities. Someone who called me needy because I wanted quality time. Someone who denied the best parts of me and I denied them too.

On my journey I have intuitively found my way to the Divine Feminine. Starting with my love of Mother Mary right through to my obsession with Quan Yin, Kali and Green Tara. I appreciate my body for all it provides. I love that it served its purpose in cradling my beloved daughter. I love that it knows what to do better than I know what it should do. I love that it has unique curves and nuances. I love how amazing it is.

All that though I kept rather hidden in my private life.

Real women act like men

I was taught that to be successful, a woman must behave like a man, dress like a man and most of all think like a man. I was taught that men would appreciate this and respect me for it. Thus I opted for Logic over Intuition, Rationalization over Feelings and Empirical Evidence over Internal Guidance to name just a few.

So, while I was instinctively drawn to the Feminine, I was externally trained towards the Masculine and it was an imbalanced affair. This is how those ailments afflicting my left side took hold.

In short I was trying to be something I wasn’t.

Oh, in case you were wondering…contrary to what I was taught, no man ever respected me for this.

The Quest

So now we come to the present day Quest. In an effort to rectify this left-sided dis-order, I set out on an adventure to explore the Divine Feminine and see if I could find my missing piece.

In my Rolfing experience the practitioner mentioned the possibility of right sided imbalance causing the left sided pain. As I did my research it became clear that metaphysically this could be the case as well.

While my childhood was filled with improper training contributing to this, my marriage of two decades only cemented the fate of my left-side. While married, I was essentially single carrying the load of both parents, mother and father.

In my profession, I also continued the dual role as I worked in a field populated by women, yet ruled by men. While healthcare and social service workers are predominantly female, the positions of power are almost exclusively male. I found myself constantly minding how I might communicate issues, with masculine verbiage, to my superiors in order to achieve harmonious resolution and existence.

So, I decided to dig deep. And in digging deep I realized that I truly did not have a clear idea of what ‘Divine Feminine and Masculine’ was.

Enter the disclaimer.

What I am about to share with you is purely personal. This is my interpretation. My understanding. Mine and mine alone. I have read everything from blog posts, to books, to oracle cards; then I meditated on what I’d learned. I had visualization journeys around it as well. I let it all sit and marinate until I could form some sort of organizational chart around it. Whether or not I am able to communicate this idea via the written word remains to be seen, but I am going to give it a go.

It could also be that this is not new to anyone but me and I’m the last one on the bus, so to speak. If that’s the case, then that’s ok by me, but I will be disappointed that you didn’t share it with me as soon as you found out.

Defining the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine

We recognize there are two distinct energies in our Universe; Masculine and Feminine. This duality concept of Feminine and Masculine is akin to the Taoist philosophy of Yin and Yang. While there may have been lifetimes or Universes in which the Feminine reigned supreme, in our recorded history on this Earth the Masculine has had an ever encroaching reign of power.

First let me share with you some examples of Feminine and Masculine energy.

The Divine Feminine vs The Divine Masculine 

  • Feelings vs Rationalize
  • Intuition vs Logic
  • Thinking vs Action
  • Receiving vs Producing
  • Emotional Body vs Physical Body
  • Internal Guidance vs Empirical Evidence
  • Meditation vs Physical Activity
  • Creation vs Adventure
  • Nurturing vs Guarding
  • Playful vs Protecting
  • Nature vs Industry
  • Moon vs Sun

If you are like most people you will read that and find yourself on both sides of the list. That’s because everyone (and every thing) has a balance of Masculine and Feminine Energies. Imbalances do exist, however. You will find some people are heavily down one side or the other. Let me point out that this list is not a breakdown of female and male characteristics. Every human being has a unique recipe of masculine and feminine energies in their make up and it is not related to gender in the least.

Each person’s make up is as unique as their fingerprint and it is only when it becomes pathological (severe imbalance) that we need be concerned. Pathological can be what I call straight ticket, down one side or the other, or a mix of pathological from both sides, but I’ll get to that in a minute. Simply put, you are imbalanced if it is not serving you.

We all have aspects of each one of these characteristics, this is not an ‘all or nothing’ kind of list. Its a matter of  which ones are more prominent than the others. The more self-actualized we become and further along on our Spiritual evolution journey the more we will hit right in the middle of the two characteristics, striking a solid balance. This optimal balance is Divine.

Divine is the highest expression of Source we can achieve through our personalities here on Earth.

If Divine is optimum, then Pathological is the antithesis. It is a complete imbalance of Feminine or Masculine energies. On the spectrum it sits at the furthest point away from the Highest Version of your Self. On our journeys we will find ourselves at multiple points on the spectrum at any given time. As we raise our awareness, our vibration rises and this is evidenced in our behaviors.

The Feminine Spectrum: Divine / Pathological

  • Gentle / Afraid
  • Authentic / People Pleasing
  • Introspective / Isolated
  • Guidance / Passivity

The Masculine Spectrum: Divine / Pathological

  • Honor / Greed
  • Diplomacy / Conflict
  • Leadership / Aggression
  • Adventurous / Reckless

Putting It Together

It is important to emphasize that every person, every situation, every life lesson, every single encounter with another human being has elements of Feminine and Masculine energy and may occur at any point on the spectrum. If you truly wanted to examine yourself you could plot your qualities on a Cartesian plane (four quadrant graph).

Divine Femine and Masculine

As you can see, the Divine Feminine and Masculine energies work in complement not in competition. Complement here, would be Divine Feminine and Competition would be Divine Masculine. Competition is not categorically an undesirable trait. Competition in games might be desirable, competition in a partnership would not be.

This is the Divine Partnership.

What I’ve Learned

My quest has offered me a new paradigm of relatedness when it comes to understanding our Spiritual Journey here on Earth. I learned that my left sided issues are a result of avoiding the Divine Masculine action that makes me uncomfortable by opting for a more comfortable Feminine one. For instance, I employ Diplomacy (Divine Masculine) well in an effort to avert Conflict (Pathological Masculine), but occasionally conflict happens and when it does, instead of remaining in Diplomacy (Divine Masculine), I tend to switch to Passivity or being Afraid (Pathological Feminine) instead of standing in Guidance or Gentleness (Divine Feminine).

Does that make sense?

The theory being, if Conflict (a pathological Masculine) arises despite employing the Divine Masculine quality of Diplomacy, then a Divine Feminine quality (not a pathological Feminine) would be required. Hence, the strain on my left side. Another example would be if I were employing a Divine Feminine quality instead of the appropriate Divine Masculine quality. Say a situation requires me to employ Leadership, but I am not comfortable with that so I opt to employ Guidance instead. The optimal setting is a nice balance of all Divine, not one Divine over another. One should be comfortable in one’s Divine skin, as it were.

As I went further down this rabbit hole, I came to a new understanding of the Expression of Source in our lives. Source is “All That Is” and has no duality, therefore the Divine is the fullest expression of Source on Earth with its duality being the Divine Mother and the Divine Father. That the Divine Feminine/Masculine is the Divine Mother/Father. *It’s important to note this is the energy of Divine Mother and Divine Father, and not the Earthly gender roles* From there the devolution of the expression of Source on Earth splits into just plain Feminine and Masculine (this is sort of the neutral point – as much Source as Ego), then to Female and Male (a smidge more Ego than Source), to Matriarchy and Patriarchy (much less Source and more Ego – gender bias power structure), with the least evolved being Hierarchy (the least amount of Source to the greatest amount of Ego – arbitrary bias power structure). This is not to say that the amount of Source in you is less, but that less of It is showing. (Think of it like a dimmer switch.)

Divine Expression (1)

So, Now What?

Now, I have knowledge and understanding of that knowledge and can get to work really balancing out my expression of the Divine Mother and the Divine Father. I can see clearly now how this has led to my imbalances and I look forward to applying this new understanding in my self-healing.

I also look forward to sharing my results with you at a later date!

I love you.

~Jade

L(i)FE – part 2

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This is the sequel to L(i)FE to further explore our Life Force Energy (LFE), and how your lack of care for it can have disastrous results on your physical health.

How It Works

We are sentient beings (Soul-our piece of Source) experiencing itself via an Earth Generated Operating System (EGOS – aka personality) and Spirit (Life Force Energy – Qi our Soul’s presence on Earth) through mental, emotional and physical opportunities.

The Breakdown of Illness, Disease and Disorder

When you fail to nourish your Qi from the five wellsprings of Qi (Source, Sun, Moon, Earth & Universe), you begin to use up reserves for daily living and invite illness, disease and disorder. Illness, disease and disorder are messages of the Spirit. Trying to get your attention to tend to what you are missing. Each aspect of our lives has physical and metaphysical properties.

Spiritual

The Spirit is the connection between our soul and our physical existence. The Spirit communicates with our mental and emotional aspects to lead us on our path. The path our Soul laid out before incarnation. In conjunction with Source our Soul outlined certain events to give us the fullest experience of whatever it is it desired to explore.

Spirit and EGOS work hand in hand in this experience to set the stage for the opportunity for the Soul’s experiment with contrast.

Earth Generated Operating System (mental)

The ability to process information, make decisions and cognitively process your experiences lies in the mental realm. This is the basis of the the Soul’s experience here on Earth. This is how/where experiences are translated and run through the belief system with Spirit.  This is the drive train of the human experience. This is where alignment or misalignment begins. Spirit connects with the mental as a first line of expression. Mental is where our understanding of Spirit is born and translated to the emotional.

Emotional

Our emotions are the first communication of our alignment (or misalignment) with our Spirit. Our mental realm is incapable of emotion and therefore cannot tell when its thoughts and beliefs are aligned or not aligned. Therefore the mental realm depends on the emotional realm to assess whether the physical experience is aligned with Soul’s purpose.

Depression and anxiety are two pieces of emotional evidence that thoughts/beliefs are not in alignment with who you are. Thoughts can propel you towards your destiny or away from it. Depression and anxiety are the result of beliefs that are in conflict with your highest self and your destiny. This discord, left unresolved will result in physical ailment.

Body

The body is the last place alignment/misalignment shows up. This is a last call, of sorts, to get you to pay attention to your spiritual self and get in alignment with your Soul’s purpose.

Let’s decipher a message from the liver as an example. Physically, the liver is the body’s chemical “factory.” It takes the raw materials absorbed by the intestine and makes all the various chemicals the body needs to function. The liver also detoxifies potentially harmful chemicals. It breaks down and secretes many drugs.

Your energy field acts like a filtering system. Metaphysically, the liver represents the aspect of your energetic filtering system that detoxifies harmful energies you encounter. It allows you to process what happens to you energetically and enables you to function. Illness, disease and disorders of the liver tells you that there is a breakdown in this process, that you have overloaded yourself with negative or low vibrational individuals/events/actions.

When we ignore our Spirit our emotions will send us notice, first. If we choose to ignore the message then illness develops.

This build up of misaligned energy is called suffering.

It is unnecessary.

I love you.

~Jade

If you are looking for a L(i)fe Force Energy Healing Session please email me at jadewillowsong@gmail.com. I work with all budgets so please do not let temporary financial resource blockages stop you from taking this step.

 

 

 

How To Get Through Recent Emotional Storms

20634261798_657dba9441_oI’ve only flown on an airplane a handful of times in my life and while most of them have faded from memory two stand out. The first one was my trip home from Disney Land bringing back a Minnie Mouse stuffed toy the size of me. The second one I remember was more epiphanic.

I was in my twenties and traveling alone. It was dark, stormy and there was question whether the flight would be cancelled, but in the end we were cleared for take off. It was as dark as night and raining hard. I had a window seat and watched the lights on the runway fly past as we left. I kept watching out that the window as we ascended and something miraculous happened. We ascended through the storm clouds and in seconds the sun was so bright I had to squint and there was no rain.

Below me I could see the entire storm system. It looked like a floor of clouds.

It had never occurred to me before that moment, that the sun would not be affected by the storm. I hadn’t really examined my thought around it before, but I suppose I imagined the clouds going all the way up to the sun (even though now that makes no sense).

There are moments when you realize that concepts of your childhood have overstayed their welcome by limiting your experiences. This was one of those moments for me. Decades later and I am still learning from that realization. It applies to so much more than even I first imagined.

The sun is always shining. It is never not on fire, never not glowing, never not illuminating, never not radiating, never not warming…never not alive. Things like night, storms, clouds, rain etc…are all temporary and capable of changing our experiences, but they are not our truth. The truth is that above the storms, even the worst of them, the sun is still shining and we just need to rise above to see it.

I have met countless individuals recently who are experiencing such emotional turbulence and the one thing they all have in common is not knowing why its happening. These are individuals dedicated to spiritual practices and positive mindset work, so what’s going on?

Many of those currently on spiritual journeys are also energy sensitive (and might not know it) and are picking up/filtering the energy of planet. I don’t think its a coincidence that many of those I am speaking of live in the United States and Canada, picking up on the anxiety and depression caused by the mass conflict in the US.

Is it really coincidence that Hurricane Harvey isn’t even a memory yet while Hurricane Irma hurtles towards our shores, followed by Jose and Katia and now an earthquake?!?! I don’t think so. We (every thing in the Universe and even the other Universes) are all connected. Every person, animal, plant, soil, cloud and star is connected as one, so it stands to reason that our collective energy can affect the weather as well as one another. What could be more symbolic of the emotional storm clouds that the United States has been under for the past year? The division, the anger, the discrimination, the hatred, the intolerance, the inhumanity, the violence – what else could we have manifested but hurricanes and earthquakes…one…after…another?

While this can feel overwhelming as we are pummeled with the relentless surge of depression and anxiety, we need to remember that if ‘they’ (they being those participating in the angst) can affect us, then we can affect ‘them’ too!

Abraham Hicks refers to The Vortex, where the vibrations of our thoughts, feelings and actions contribute in order to create our lives (ok, its really hard to exactly describe that concept!) Others refer to connecting to Source. Still others speak of raising your vibration. That’s all well and good unless you have no idea what that means or how to do it.

This is where the storm metaphor comes in.

The Sun represents Source, The Highest Vibration or The Vortex as you will. It is always there no matter what we can see from our vantage. It is Truth. The storm clouds, thunder, lightening, blackness and even nighttime represent the challenging times in our lives. They are temporary illusions if you will, as they give the appearance of separating us from the sun, but if you raise yourself high enough you find the Truth, that the sun is never blackened out, we are only disconnected from it – and even that is an illusion.

Now, when the storm rolls in we can imagine that the storm will go on forever, or we can remember that the sun is shining above it and we just need to realign ourselves to the truth of what is Permanent rather than fear the temporary illusion of the storm. When we are in the storm we can feel the fear or we can feel the reassurance of knowing that we can depend on the Truth that the sun is still shining and we just need to wait for a break in the clouds.

So, if you are one of the sensitive ones who is feeling the hurricanes of depression and anxiety ‘out of the blue’, try to remember to connect with Source. Rise above the storm clouds of emotion and tap into the Unconditional Love that we are created from and you will begin to feel some relief.

For me it helps to visualize rising through the storm, like I did that day on the plane and plugging myself into the Sun, recognizing it as the Highest Vibration. I imagine myself connected by a chord that feeds me that vibration directly into my being and working on my behalf while I am in the midst of temporary storms.

Be well. Be safe….and if you need me you know where to find me.

Love,
Jade

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